Tuesday, September 13, 2011

It's Funny How...

I think it's kinda funny how this entire summer i've been scared out of my mind. I've been afraid that my evil ex-boyfriend is going to come find me somewhere on this massive college campus and kill me. I know this seems a little....ok, a lot, extreme and it is. But when the nightmares come to get you in the middle of the night, you can't exactly tell them "You're not very realistic so please go away." If it did work like that, my nights would've been a lot more relaxing and filled with a lot more sleep. Social media networks have now made me realize that I have nothing to fear anymore. People post their entire lives on these things so it's becoming a lot easier to "stalk" people and find out about them and how life is treating them. Going onto ex #5's profile, I have discovered many things. The first and most obvious one that doesn't take much thought is that he is still single. Not that this matters much (I'm completely and totally over him) but it's nice to know. The second thing is that the upkeep on his profile isn't what it used to be. He posts stupid links to others pages and answers a comment here and there but no more status updates. The third and most important thing is that he's not as happy as I am. This boy is alone with his friends and nobody else. I doubt he's even gotten laid since me and that was May 30th to be exact. (what can I say? I'm good with dates) I've him once and only once on campus which means he's probably avoiding me because I feel I would've noticed him since then.  I say let him be miserable. Let him not be over me at all. I want him to suffer. Let him suffer the way i've been suffering for the past 4 months and see how he likes it. Me, i'm as happy as a pig in shit. Might not be the best simile, but I can't think of anything better at the current moment. I am over him and am moving forward in my life and in my career. I'm as busy as I possibly can be and i'm going to make something of myself one day. I also have a boyfriend whom i'm madly in love with and can see myself spending the rest of my life with. I do hope he feels the same. I know i've said this about other boys in the past, but this time seems different. Yea, i've said that too, but this time really does. The boy that calls you "perfect" is the one you should stay with, right? We shall most certainly find out.

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